Lately I have been struggling with what I call my "rejection effect." I feel the only response I get in life lately is rejection.
The definition of rejection, according to dictionary.com, is
1. the act or process of rejecting.
2. the state of being rejected.
3. something that is rejected.
It all began last November when the Sunday after Thanksgiving my husband informed me that he wanted a divorce. Needless to say this came as quite the shock to me because we had just bought a trailer in both our names not 2 weeks before. In hindsight he "bought" the trailed because he felt the need to help my children and I out so that we would always have a place to live. Talk about feeling rejected.
Then again in January, I felt rejected. The purpose for my move to Carlisle was because I had been hired by a private company. The leadership in this company was very misleading because she led me to believe I was doing a great job but after my probationary period was up I was terminated from employment with this company. Rejected again. Looking back I shouldn't have been surprised based on comments that other people had made about the classroom I was assigned to.. 4 teachers in less than 2 years. It was a shock as well since the boss had been in my classroom the week before and told me I was doing a good job and stated this in front of other people. Yet a week later I was terminated. Confusing, daunting, and disappointing are only a few words to describe how I felt.
Since losing this job I have sent out resumes and applications that I have finally lost count of the amount of paper, ink, and time I have put into job searching. Mostly this inquiries about employment have ended in rejection as well. You are overqualified or we have a candidate that better meets our needs so no interview for you. I began to doubt myself and started to sink lower and lower into depression. To see my self as a failure as well as a reject.
I don't want to see myself as a reject or as a failure..
Is there such a thing as this "rejection effect"? I guess only time will tell.
It all began last November when the Sunday after Thanksgiving my husband informed me that he wanted a divorce. Needless to say this came as quite the shock to me because we had just bought a trailer in both our names not 2 weeks before. In hindsight he "bought" the trailed because he felt the need to help my children and I out so that we would always have a place to live. Talk about feeling rejected.
Then again in January, I felt rejected. The purpose for my move to Carlisle was because I had been hired by a private company. The leadership in this company was very misleading because she led me to believe I was doing a great job but after my probationary period was up I was terminated from employment with this company. Rejected again. Looking back I shouldn't have been surprised based on comments that other people had made about the classroom I was assigned to.. 4 teachers in less than 2 years. It was a shock as well since the boss had been in my classroom the week before and told me I was doing a good job and stated this in front of other people. Yet a week later I was terminated. Confusing, daunting, and disappointing are only a few words to describe how I felt.
Since losing this job I have sent out resumes and applications that I have finally lost count of the amount of paper, ink, and time I have put into job searching. Mostly this inquiries about employment have ended in rejection as well. You are overqualified or we have a candidate that better meets our needs so no interview for you. I began to doubt myself and started to sink lower and lower into depression. To see my self as a failure as well as a reject.
I don't want to see myself as a reject or as a failure..
Is there such a thing as this "rejection effect"? I guess only time will tell.
